Guest Blogging

On the request of Shane, here I am posting an entry as a guest blogger. I'm Jason, for those who don't know, I'm currently his roommate here in Sydney. Alright, enough of self introduction.
Back to the post, I'm just gonna talk about what we had for dinner. FYI, thinking about what to have for dinner is not an easy task, perhaps not for you, but it is definitely the case for us. After spending some time wandering around the city looking for food, we finally settled for Japanese food. Food was pretty good and reasonable, environment was good too, however the waiting was kinda long, and so my phone became the tool used by Shane for his camwhoring needs.

Shot 1

Shot 2

Shot 3: Obviously self shooting doesn't satisfy his need, so I had to give him a hand.

I will end this post with a funny looking picture of him, sorry I have no idea how to rotate the picture, I have already edited the picture in my computer before I upload it here, however that didn't help so just bear with me.
Thats all for today, have a nice day folks.

Weekends

So how did i spend my entire weekends? On friday, i finished off the drama series i had been watching for a month! oh gosh, it took forever to finish it, so not me~! Went out with Jason after that to sign up for a post paid number. The pretty girl still remembered me, how nice, i think it's either i am cute or i am a fussy customers. ok i know, you all would say the latter is more likely to happen. but she gave me a month waived. okok, the arguement will not stop if i keep rattling about it.

On saturday, i woke up at 12pm. that's the longest nice sleep i have had since two weeks ago. oh my god, i could feel that it was going to be a nice day when i woke up. so yeah, i went out with sherene to the market city. she was looking for headset, but the task of looking for headset had then turned into a window shopping spree. Roaming around market city, i could really see my footprint on every inches of floor in the center. It's then we decided to head to the karaoke, greenbox which i think will soon become my second home. lol. yeah, it's only sherene and I, so two hours of singing had taken away half of my strength for the day. but the satisfaction was always that gratifying. what's then? walking around the city when jason was off from work.

At night, nick called me out to accompany him. so i went out at 10pm after the given 10 minutes to get changed. he looked sad, probably the aftermath of the breakup. it's then i knew the booze session was inevitable. we went to rockdale when his friends picked us up at worldsquare. We drank, played game, telling ghost stories and decided to head back to the city at 2.30am. headed back to city didn't mean going home, but to continue our night chilling at somewhere else. i got home at 4am, took my shower and settled down in front of my computer at 5am. yao zhong was on the line, i chatted with him for two hours, yeah, for the first time in aus, i have seen the sunrise. it's nice but i was tired. went for a jog and came back slumping myself on the bed and snored off.

the night has given me a night full of memories. i remembered how nice the time were back in malaysia when we went out for night show, we drove up to genting late at 12am, we stayed overnight at one's place, we dragged everyone else from their sleeps to go mamak and chatted all night, we drove around without knowing where to go. i realised that i actually buried all the memories at the bottom of my heart when i said "i missed everything back home" though i actually should have realised "i missed everything back home SO MUCH". The night spent with nick and friends brought back all the memories i have had.

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so i went to bed at 7am in the morning. and sherene rang me at 9am for breakfast as we had planned the day before. For merely two hours of sleep, i woke up and got changed and went out for breakfast with her and jason. Went to the typical western breakfast shop that was not really packed as everyone was still sleeping, i ordered myself scrambled on toast and cammomile tea to soothe my body.

Sherene said i looked so cute in both "girl" and "boy" ways. lol. the sleepy eyes~
Sherene was enjoying her breakfast. scrambled eggs and bacon on toast. looked nice~and taste nice~
Figuring out the way to open the tea bag. lol. it shouldn't be that hard voonsien~~~

We then went to the malaysian festival which took place in darling harbour. rojak, 100 plus (obviously we dont have it here in australia), roti canai, all sort of malaysian cuisine, but the price itself didnt seem appealing. we left after 10 minutes. We were planning to go to cabramatta for vietnamese food with Katherine and KK.
Waiting for Katherine. ok, i didn't colour my hair!!!

KK had gotten a flat tyre. so the lunch plan was called off. i went home and spent the rest of the noon in my bed. the sleep was on and off though, it made me more tired and yeah, i fell sick. At 6pm, i went out again. To dinner and spent the night at friend's place and had my haircut.

yeah, i have finally had my haircut this morning. it's 77 aussie dollars. professional~wow. but well, i didn't have to pay a single cent. thanks steven~~the haircut is really nice~~
front part, its kind of mess as its windy today. haha.

the back part, or side? okok side-rear. ok back to the camwhore me~eh eh, i dont usually camwhore ok. the main purpose is all on the hair!!!! lol....

Smile Therapy

Life is stressful, whenever or wherever you go, you see everyone around you is rushing. Rush to work, rush to school, rush to train station or even rush to shopping. Take a close look, there are at least 100 people walk past you everyday, but how many of them would actually lift their head look at you and give you a heart-warming smile? It's definitely countable with your fingers. And now ask yourself, will you really smile to a stranger that you go into along the street?

"No way! people might think you're crazy or you are interested in them~" you'd say. That's why the society is so lacking of smiles.

i have had a busy week, the assignments test insomnias and bla bla have really stressed me out. As always, when i am pressurized, i'd tend to do something strange, something inconceivale that i myself will giggle at my act afterwards.

A friend of mine Josh told me on Monday "Shane, what's wrong with you? i like it when you smile! so smile for me!"

It's until then i realised i haven't been smiling for a week, i mean from the bottom of my heart in this case. So i decided to revert back to the old me (the dumb-looking-smiling-guy), and actually carried out an experiment that i think is quite funny yet meaningful.

On monday morning, i walked to the bus station to get a bus to uni. What's different today from the usual uni day was that i looked at people around me instead of my phone. i smiled to some of the people whom i thought were worth my smile. To my surprise, instead of the awkward smile i'd have expected from them and the monologue "what's wrong with this guy" they'd have in their mind, they actually gave me a light smile, "how're you doing?"was then ensued. Only one or two of them did so though, but that's definitely enough to actually cheer me up.

i kept up with the mission when i got out of the uni. In the bus, a senior Aussie citizen was sitting in front of me, staring at me when i settled down on my seat. i caught a glance at her, and met her eyes (from the experiences i have had all these years, people would just try to avert their eyes to somewhere else in this situation). So instead of averting my eyes, i met her eyes for another second, and gave her the simplest smile i could make at that moment. Immediately after that, she smiled, showing all her white teeth and i could tell she was really smiling from the bottom of her heart as her eyes were smiling as well at that moment. I didn't strike up a conversation with her, neither did she, but i could see that we both were delighted. The feeling is unbelievable, the feeling of getting a true smile from a stranger that you hardly know or she hardly knows you is just gratifying. Actually she very much reminded me of my grandma. my grandma has always greeted people, even strangers. with her smile. A smile can draw you closer to the people around you, and actually make you more friendly, more approchable.

The smile is kind of fake, but it's better than anything, and you could get more back that actually make you feel great with merely just a smile!

Getting off the bus, i could feel that my body and my soul were all relaxed, it's the brisk pace that led me to the way home. i went to QVB for a walk, and repeated the same things. i still got the same outcome as most of the people did bother to reply my smile.

not only humans need a smile, animal and some non-living organisms need a smile too. They might not have the sophisticated brain to think like a human, but they are capable of deciphering the simplest language in this world --smile~
that has actually given me some confidence about myself and some satisfaction to make up for the moody week i had had a few days ago. and frankly speaking, a smile is the simplest way to make you look good, look charming and most importantly attractive.

Picture post

Haven't been uploading my own picture to the blog for a while. Think it's time to do so as to keep your memory of me refreshed~~install it in your brain and never to delete it~~lol..

Can see that i am getting worse and worse. Sherene could hardly take it anymore that she wanted to shot me in my head. we were in the train going to city from Homebush.

ok, Sherene had changed her mind by then. i am too cute to be shot dead. haha. she claimed that i am a poser, are always ready to pose. lol.

Went to Equilibrium for a drink on Suchada's birthday. Spot the drinks on the table, there are three vodka lemonade, and one lemon lime bitter. yeah, Sherene was having the lemon lime bitter, she is a good girl? no alcohol? hehe........

that's a queen, but i don't quite know who is she. But seems majestic. There are a lot of diamonds around her, as you tell from the picture, she is "shining". A statue setting up in Queen Victoria Building (QVB). pay a visit when you are here~

ok time to sleep, will update more soon.

See you in December

I want to go home!!!! i want to see the baby, i want to hold him in my arms!!!

A baby does make a lot of differences in our life. It breaks our usual routines, it brings another kind of life to us, it brings us a beam of new hope and of course a heavier responsibility. oh gosh, i sounded like i am a father now. lol. But to be in my brother's shoes, i could really imagine how much changes the baby has brought to the whole family.

i have always liked babies. I am always drowned in the thought of being a father in the future. At least now i am an uncle which can somehow quench my thirst for some time. i called my mom, called my grandma to update myself with more news of the baby. They would just tell me alot of the things that happened around. i could tell how happy they are by the sound of it.

i actually looked at the picture and try to fit its faceto my brother's or my sis-in-law's face. But it just doesn't seem to match. who is he alike? well, his figure is still changing, we shall wait and see.

He doens't have double eye-lid, typical chia's generation. However he has the hidden double-eye-lid as told by my grandma. Well, just like mine!! Good, you are going to be a cute guy!!!! lol.
aw. he looked so depressed in this picture. i think he was sad because i haven't been there to see him. he must be wondering "where is my uncle vs? everyone is here but him". I KNOW I THINK TOO MUCH!!! I JUST NEED MY EXISTENCE TO BE IMPRINTED IN HIS MIND!!!

His name is 谢孟轩, Bryvan Chia. what a nice name.

i want to go home. For the very few times in my life that i have had homesick, i got the homesick feeling again nowadays. Sometimes i am foolish enough to have hoped that i am still a baby, waiting to be pampered, need not worry so much over the things happening around me that i have to deal with.

"what are you worried about? you're a student, your priority is to study." my mum always said.

"if i am just going to study and not care about the things happened around me, i think i am so paralysed." i always tell her, not hoping she would help me with what has actually troubled me so much.

Actually i don't know how good a son i have been to my mom, not to mention my dad. We seldom talked about my problem, we seldom talked about my life, i am just a cheerful son to her, at least by the look of it. i am obligated to deal with my own life, i shouldn't and i am not willing to bring that up to them.

A new member has been brought to our family. All i want to do when i get back is to have a full picture of all the family members taken and everyone is laughing from their hearts!!

Kings Cross

Living in the city, i should definitely make full use of the fact that everywhere is within walking distance from my place, Kings Cross in this case. It's a 15 minutes walk from my place to the well-known Kings Cross.

What's it famous for? Initially it's known as the "Red Light DIstrict" where prostitution is everywhere along the street. But nowadays everyone is thronging there for its bar, club and strip clubs.

So after dinner on a Friday night, Jason and I had a walk there as our after-dinner-activity. Apparantly we were not there for clubbing, neither were we for a drink. he had never been there, so it's just a brief tour. Why am i explaining so much here?lol.

It took more than 15mins to walk there as we had just had our dinner and the overstuffed stomach restrained our moving and we had to make it slow. As we saw the big CocaCola advertisement board, we were relieved as it's the signficant landmark of where we were- Kings Cross.

Strolling along the street, it's still quiet, considering that it's only 8pm. The peak hour for clubbing is basically after 10pm. we walked past lots of bar, club, adult bookshop and of course the strip clubs.

Here the fun part had come.

We were walking past a strip club where the guard man asked us for ID. so i thought he was something like casual cop (too much drama!!!), so i showed him mine. and jason showed his as well. After he had seen it, he then talked to us
"Come on in, we have the live show!"
We just walked away, having him chasing after us and didn't seem to give up. we couldn't be bothered and walked down the street.
The same thing happened when we passed by another strip club. The guard men acted like prostitutes, sugartalked the passers-by to go in and "have fun".

i then talked to Jason,
"just tell them "i am gay, no point of going in" "

Jason stared at me for a moment and bounced me back with a question,
"what if he says this is a gay strip club"

i was stunned by the question for a moment, and continued being the crappy me,
"tell him "i have somebody at home to give me a live show, i don't want to pay to get in there"

Jason faked the smile to tell me " what else can i say?"

I couldn't help but wonder, why are we the target? there were plenty of people walking on the street, but why, why were we the target but not them at that time? Do we particularly look like we are going through spermiation or ovulation or whatever it's called and portrayed it through our horny look? Well, the only answer for this that i could figure out was that WE ARE TEENAGERS!~~

Teenagers are the phase which people refer to as the "curious and rebellious and "party" gang. if you don't drink and not get drunk, if you don't give away your "first sex", then you are not considered as a "real" teenager. How true is that?

At the age of 13-15, we fancy about getting drunk. we downed the first shot of alcohol, we talked about sex and giggled throughout the talk.
At the age of 16-18, some people might have their first sex intercourse while some are looking forward to it when they listened to their friends showing off their experiences, we still go out partying alot, drinks, hang out with mates, become so ignorant that our parents are trying to ground us at home by all means.
At the age of 19, which is the last but precious year of being a teenager, we act as if we are almost graduated from the "teenager's-fun-and-adventurous course" and called ourselves the experienced one. We tend to pick on the younger generation which are going through the stage that we thought we have all been through not realising that we actually are still going through the same stage as theirs. we are still going out on party, stay up late, drinking, clubbing all sort of thing.

frankly speaking, i don't know which stage i am currently in. i don't fancy drinking, i don't like clubbing though i don't mind going, i don't feel like getting drunk, i don't smoke, what the hell a teenager am i? should i not be enjoying my adolescence? why am i not into it?

maybe i have had enough(it's very unlikely) or i am just so sick of it?!!!!........

is life all about relationship?

i have had so many questions to grapple with all these days.
"is life all about relationship?"
"why are we so obsessed with the task of looking for the one for ourselves?"
"how true is the fact that most of the human beings can be blinded by love?"

All these questions have contributed to a few consecutive sleepless nights that caused me act like a drunken guy.

i have talked to a friend of mine Xin recently. She has just separated with her boyfriend. All she told me was that the relationship has lasted 2 years, it isn't long really, but try to be in her shoes and think:
"if someone that you have given in so much to cheated you when you think he is the one for you, what would you do and how would you feel?"
heartbroken? upset? not able to eat? not able to sleep? all these will mostly happen, and it will last for a few weeks, or months, depends on how much you have given in, or how emotional are you.

We always say, "relationships have its ups and downs, might as well accept it and think positvely since you can't avoid it by all means". "why sad? why the tears? is he worth it?"
These are the things that your friends will tell you when you confide to them about your broken relationships. That's just wrong!!!! Even a five-year-old kid who knows nothing about relationship can tell you those things.
so you will ask me, "then what are we supposed to say?"
To be honest, i have no idea at all. i don't know what to say, i don't know what's the exact way to comfort a people like this. "Try to fit yourself in, try to tell her something that you wish to hear from anybody else when you are the one breaking up" i told myself which led to the words i told her afterwards.

"Just cry, cry until you think you can get over it. But try to find someone you can trust, and cry in front of her or him, don't ever cry alone, that'll make thing worse. actually everyone of us would like our tears to be seen, not publicly apparantly, but at least be seen by someone you love or you treasure. If you think you can't leave him, just go back to him, talk to him. i will not ask you not to give him another chance because i know you won't be able to do it. Give him a chance to explain, and listen to him, then you will be able to judge whether you are going to accept him back or ask him to leave you alone."

i don't know if i was telling her the right thing, but once the words are said, you can never take it back. Well, she is doing fine, has been left heartbroken and is still heartbroken, but i think that won't be long until you have found someone nice again.

so the process of recycle is applied in our life so frequesntly that we hardly realise it. you are left heartbroken, then you continue with the task of looking for the one again until it's done, then you have your happy times, and then are left hearbroken again. even when you are married, you will get divorce and get married again. that's life, try to look back, you are actually repeating the same steps that you have been through, still anticipating what's the next girl or guy will like. you can't say humans are stupid, because we are confined in the big square of relationships which donimate most part of your life~

life is all about looking for the one. nobody wants to live alone, without partner in this case, no matter how heartbroken you are left in the previous relationship.
Looking for the one-->relationship--->happily ever/ heartbroken--->looking for the one-->..............
the same process is repeated until the last breath is exhaled.

New Status : Uncle

As the title said, i am an uncle now. my sis-in-law has just given birth this morning. I was in the lecture when my brother called me to tell me the news. frankly speaking, i almost fell asleep in the lecture. The call has indeed kept me awake and excited throughout the lecture. How i wish i am there to witness the delightful moment for the whole family, but not all alone in the lecture telling my friends how happy i was.

the baby is massive!!! 3.8kg which is around 8.5 pounds. oh my god, compared to me who weighed only 2.7kg when i was born. i have just received the pic from my bro.
HE IS SOOOOOO CUTE!!!! However, my mum's dream which has longed for a granddaughter proved to be shattered. well, my house is just lack of girls luck~haha.

Haven't been updating my blog for a while. i am busy with life, with a new life that i haven't entirely adapted to. it won't be long. i hope.

let's celebrate my new status!!! uncle. omg, i am so old now!!!