Congee is not rice! lol

Yeh, i cooked congee tonight, an hour ago to be exact, but i failed big time on the first attempt. It looked completely like a bowl of rice with soup which has been dried off for not eating it immediately after it's cooked. sadness!!! i couldn't even cook congee!!!!! what a shame.

Firstly, i boiled the rice with hot water and ginger to spice up the congee. After it's boiled, i added in some lean pork and was going to add in some carrot as well but obviously i didn't have any so yeah i couldn't be bothered and actually too late to go down and get it. So after 15 minutes, it looked fine already but i thought since it's congee, i would heat it up for another 5 or 10 minutes. Obviously after that, the congee looked like a bowl of rice, to make the matter worse, it somehow looked like sticky rice !! yeah, no kidding, sticky rice because the water was totally dried off.

what did i do then? aiyo, of course call my mum la!!! lol. then she laughed her ass off while telling me to add more water and let it boiled again for another 3-5 minutes, and not to forget to add in more salt as i added in some more water. i know that!!!!! i actually counted the amount of salt to be added in proportion to the water added in. fuiyo. lol. obviously she was looking down at me!!! It's ok, how many people on earth will actually gain success in their first attempt?

and after that, ta daa~~~~~

it did look like congee now. haha. and it actually tasted so nice that i am considering to run a restaurant selling Shane's Congee in Coogee. lol. it rhymes!!!!! lol.

Anyway, winter is here. It's way too early!!! and it's reported that this year is going to be colder than last year. {might as well start snowing la 笨 (pronounce it in canto)}.The freezingly cold weather and the lack of sleep due to my never-ending assignments and tests defeated my immune system and i have to say i hate runny nose and the ceaseless sneezing!

ok take care guys. i will get my ass back here soon when i am done with my reservoir engineering test next week. it's painful but thinking that Rachie (my lecturer) has put in so much effort in teaching us (suddenly become so appreaciative), I shouldn't disappoint her. wow, i will send her the link to my blog. lol.

bye~じゃあまた

徘徊

第一次觉得自己很蠢

没法在广义与狭义之间取个平衡
论生活，感情抑或态度
把自己看得很小，把自己的信心打落谷底
将别人的想法放大
总觉得对于感觉的敏锐度，别人的总大过于自己的
出发点也混淆了 完全不能自己

霏霏的细雨 保暖的夹克
掩饰不了心中的疙瘩
这场长命雨来得真不是时候
如果气温骤降 雨点凝结成霜
或许会是不同的想法

呼吸让我想起空气的回忆

Breakdown

Do people really get nervous breakdown due to the unbearable level of stress and mental breakdown caused by the ceaseless problems that hit you like there is no tomorrow? The answer is yes. I was pretty skeptical about it but yes after experiencing it once, i couldn't believe more!

What would one normally do when they are struck by so called the mental breakdown? and what are the symptoms of it?

Firstly, an emotional self would reveal inevitably. Less words, less mingle around, less social activity, always seem to be drowning in your own thoughts/world. You can call that depression but they are totally different, at least you are not suicidal and you tend to take it out.

so what did i do? Yeh, i am not ashamed to say that i cried, like a baby indeed, when i was on the phone with Sherene. Everything could have easily triggered the tears gland and started to well up and then streaming down. It happened just within a split second and i was shocked at what i was doing. Trying to hold back and tried to introspect but what the hell can't i just be irrational for minutes??? so i reckoned it'd be better off to just let it be. After 10 minutes, yeah not long, i ceased, and talked to Sherene for the next 5 mins but still sobbing all the way.

Asked for the reasons, i could only say there have been too many things going around and haunting me like a flies buzzing you all the time. and yeah i lost control, for once, and couldn't handle myself well enough to resolve everything. All in all, i realised that i am just a normal human being, a normal guy.

When would you let down your guard and just be yourself exposing your inner self and tell the whole world how at times you can get so weak inside? It's always easy for girls, but there is always a great wall to cross over in order for a guy to get to that point, and i would reckon it's rather a mountain than a wall for some guys.

So people, don't suppress your feelings. Even the toughest guy on earth need a break to be able to be persistent in the long run. :) but then, you can't always be depressed or unhappy. a day or two is fine, but if it lasts for a month, better consult a pyschiatrist because i think a psychologist can no longer help you and let alone you yourself. It's always different when it comes to the level of EQ that decide your capability of handling everything. :)

What's the truth about a man on an island?

A phone call at 3am and i quickly got changed and waited in the cold. Not something emergency, not something bad. Hopped on the car in 2 minutes. The smell of alcohol, just a minor one, realised that i have been a teetotaller for months. Driving around without any destination, pub-crawlers were starting to hail a taxi to get home while the others were still making noise on the street. Driving towards north but didn't cross the harbour bridge, the car came to a halt at Walsh Bay after passing by Sydney Dance Company where i picked up my dance lessons last year.

Sydney Opera House was just across the sea. The lightings were all turned on, breathtaking but seemed lonely. Who the hell would care about The Opera House at night, but nevertheless i could subconsciously heard Sherene babbling about the history of it a month ago. lol. Yeh, back to the car. It's wee hours in the morning and the pin-dropped silence made the Bay so dead.

Never care about The Opera House, and keeping quiet was not a better idea either, the topics wandered off from Malaysia to Hawaii to Japan, from childhood to the future, from gossips to reality, my sleepiness had all gone by then. Really, the conversation was so great, it reminded me of what a mutal conversation is like and how wonderful it could be.

The night was still young, whoever said that was a real genius. I never think the night will become any older anyhow until you get tired of it.

Two hours passed with thousands of words spoken. It helped sobering people up, and helped me to put things into perspective. I wondered how rarely do people tell the truth, and how often people by all means trying to hide themselves, and how often do people lie on the pretext of protecting themselves?

I got home at 5-ish. Tried to put myself to sleep but the thoughts were too overwhelming. Put them into a blender, after a few minutes i got a whole new perspective, not an exciting one, but at least an inspiring one that will keep me going for a while.

One question, will you tell the truth when you're talking to yourself? People so often were too fragile to do that and tend to be delusive. And so, what's the truth about a man on an island? noone will seem to get the answer. But if you go deep enough, the answer might just be buried somewhere and waiting to be revealed.

phew, go to sleep la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tagged by Kai

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Frankly i don't really give a damn. As long as i think i am good enough to get married, then that'll be the time. but of course, not older than 35 or younger than 25. yi actually i do have an age scope, ok la, it's 25-35.

2. What do you think you were in your past life?
A player, in this case a guy that multi-time girls and women, can't seem to get enough of females.

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
Singing. but actually i think singing has become part of my life not only a favourite thing to do. so i will go for travelling. :)

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Definitely. why not???

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
1 dream???? oh well then my dream would be that every other of my dreams come true. :) that's not too greedy is it?

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Hell no. you need food to keep life moving, without money you couldn't get food.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Myself. It's the worst thing on earth to lose yourself.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Deposit it into the bank so that i can earn interest and don't have to get a part-time job??? haha.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Sure will. No doubt.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Good with words (funny yet meaningful at times). Miss her bf so much that you can tell she is a good lover (this is a good point aye!!!). Very easy to get along (don't really have to care that she is a girl).

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Really want to be my other half.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
hypocrites and liars.

13. What is your ambition?
graduate and start earning as much money as possible. Not forgetting to get a life of course.

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
basically nowhere. ok la if you insist, then just teleport me to the house next door. lol.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family and friends.

16. hey kai, where is your question 16???????

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
hm, i am pretty happy with everything about myself. So yeah i might have to consult my friends. lol.

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Myself and some of my closest friends.

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Successful and have a wonderful family.

20. what else are you doing when you are writing this tag?
Watching Shin Chan.

I tag:
Timothy Ting
Stefanie Chuah
Izah
Hadee
Christopher Tay
Yao Zhong
Khai Yi
Venus

Apples and Me

ok it's time to turn my clock an hour backward. So for those people in Malaysia, i am only two hours ahead of you now. :) that means i've earned an hour extra now. It means a lot to procrastinator like me, as with an hour extra, i could have finished one of the many assignments, only if I can be bothered much. haha.

oh yeah talking about the title, i have been on an apple fast for three days, which means that i ate only apple for the past three days. WHAT FOR? TO MAKE YOURSELF SLIMMER AND LOOK LIKE THOSE STARVING AFRICAN? that's what my mum said once i told her about the apple fast. yeh, i ate only appleS and drank only water for the past three days. Please don't overlook the S at the back of apple, it's important enough to differentiate my apple fast from the apple diet that people usually do to cut down their weight. yeh, i ate apple whenever i felt hungry, so I actually ate an amount of 10 apples on the first day, 8 apples on the second day and 9 apples on the third day, which was the last day. Besides that, i performed enema as well. For those of you who don't happen to know what enema is, it's a process done by inserting the enema tool (which usually is a tube followed by a bottle filled with sodium bicarbonate) into your anus to clean the lower bowel. That is to clean those leftover fibre or whatever that stays in your lower bowel. If you still don't understand, it's called 灌肠 in Mandarin. lol.

VS, why the hell would you wanna do that? ok, firstly it's to detoxify my body, not that i had a lot of toxins in my body, it's actually to find out whether or not ance has got anything to do with diet and yeah i have my pimples breakout coming back which is why i am going on this apple fast. Accutane obviously hasn't done me a long term effect, and the side effects are just crappy. Neither did Benzoyl Peroxide nor Salicyclic Acid and Climdamycin do any good. oh well, all in all, if anything the apple fast is definitely for good. I didn't have to starve myself, nor was i deprived of nutritions as apples actually give enough nutritions except for the excessive carbohydrate which we need to keep the day going. oh well, it doesn't matter to me i could still go on with my daily routine.

I realised that i really had a very strong determination and willpower. I was actually brave enough to go out with Jason and my cousin for dinner. yeah, i didn't have anything they had but only apples, and the temptations of those food were just simply overwhelming. oh well, i have been tough enough to resist all the temptations. I don't want to pour my effect into the sea just because of the temptations.

So how's the result? yeah, i could actually see the result in three days, waking up today noticing that most of the pimples have calmed down a lot if not gone. Positive i would say. Besides, i feel really healthy and refreshing. and most importantly, i am craving for all kinds of food now. Even the white bread just tastes heavenly. hahaha. I will not be as picky as i have always been today onwards, HOPEFULLY!

The downside is, Sherene, by all means, tried to tempt me out of the fast. We went to the Lindt Cafe for hot chocolate of course. It's LINDT people!!!!!! and instead of getting myself a cup of nice hot chocolate, i went for green tea (green tea is a very good antioxidant fyi). haha, silly and funny guy! She even asked Jason to join her in buying the Pig's ear (猪耳朵), yeah it's my all time favourite, and eat them right in front of me. oh well, dare me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahha. you will see yourself failing. fuiyo!!!!!!

yeap, that's the whole tale of me and my apples. i just can't get enough them, can i ?? *puking* big time. To be honest, i havent gotten sick with the apples!!!! wow!!!!!

ok that's all for today. My raisin toast and mushroom soup are waiting for me (i bought them yesterday in advance, haha).

have a nice day guys!