Lily and Lou Sai

We were on a day trip to Wollongong when Sherene and I decided to do some random thing out of the blue. It's really random trust me.

Background Info:
All of a sudden, i recalled Mun Ee's( one of my high school mates) interesting "bei gu"( they call the lady from northern China in Hong Kong) accent back in chong hwa. Then i just blurted it when Sherene got all excited and showed me the "proper" accent. I was all stunned and thought i was watching the Hong Kong drama series. lol.

Theme:
Lily (the lady) was talking to lou sai (the boss) and trying to persuade him to buy her a Gucci Bag that was on a 20% sale.

Starring:
Sherene- the lady
Shane- the boss

Setting:
Wollongong- on the lawn on a cliff overlooking the blue pacific ocean.

Director:
Jason

It's interesting how people tend to assimilate their own accent with a foreign language. It's supposed to be one same language but sometimes you are just not sure whether or not it's the language that you are familiar with.

Here is the scenario. In Australia, the common language is English (of course, but you will be amazed by how Mandarin and Cantonese have gradually taken over), but sometimes when you overhear the people next door talking, you wouldn't be 100% sure that they are speaking English even though they really are.

That's what actually allows people of different nationalities stand out from one another. Not to forget to seek familiarity in a foreign country. I like it when people can just recognize you through your accent. It's the accent that bind the people together.

p/s: It's really funny to see how Sherene instinctively speaks mandarin and english with a Malaysian accent. Sometimes she wouldn't even notice that her mandarin is almost if not totally replaced by the malaysian mandarin.

"啊，没得救了!"

"walao, 美到!"

"七点三个字"

wahahahhahaa, i am starting to think that i am such a vice, a bad influence. lalalla.

Trust you with my smile

What would do you when you really trust a person? You will be happy and give your earnest smile from the bottom of your heart. The same concept is applied when you dont trust a person but you know it's too late not to, you will be depressed and blame yourself for giving yourself away too early.

I was chatting with Jen the other day where we delved into the discussion of trust. yeh, trust is always the basis of a relationship, or a friendship, but every so often, people take it for granted and exploit it that we see it as something thats not trustful at all. How ironic! Trust is not trustful at all.

"i think i have given in to this guy completely!" Jen brought it up and i was all ears.

"hmm, how long have you been knowing him?" i asked.

"around 1.5 months now!" she said, sounded apprehensive but i could sense her insecurity.

"i know how it feels, you are trying to hold back but the feeling is too overwhelming and as time goes by you realised that you have already poured all in but it's too late now!" i said.

"perhaps it's not as bad as you thought, maybe he is really the one for you? time doesn't mean a thing really, it's the chemistry, not the duration" i then added, trying to boost her confidence.

"yeah i know, i know i trust him a lot, and i know he is a good guy, probably will be the one for me. but sometimes, to think that he has had so many past relationships, i couldn't help to but compare myself to them only to realise that i am nothing compared to them. you know that kind of feeling? you always look at yourself with disdain in front of the person you like, or i should say you love" she told me, and again i could sense her feeling of insecurity and a slight depression.

I was speechless with the monologue storming inside " is it just Jen? or everyone has a tendency to do that? is it really that hard to give in your trust to someone? is it really that insecured to fall for someone?" I was asking myself and obviously neither I nor Jen could give ourselves an answer.

Time will tell, that's what everyone says.

how much does trust worth? would you prefer a guy telling you he trust you whole-heartedly or you would rather get a diamond ring from him with him telling you that you better not cheat on him? It's like he is trying to "bribe" you, materialistically. or you would rather think this way "trust worths nothing, but diamond ring worths a lot. "

Diamond ring will stay after the breakup but trust never does.

Whether or not you decide to trust someone is always up to you, despite the very subjective judgement you can only get from yourself. Noone will tell you what to do or whether or not you should trust that somebody, because you know that somebody better than everyone else.

So why doubt so much while you can just trust somebody with a smile (not a flirty smile!!!). If you notice that you have mistrusted him/her, bring along your wrecked heart, together with the shattered trust, and move on to someone else. It's always a trial-and-error kinda stuff, no pain no gain. What's more you dont want to regret to yourself if he/she just happens to be the one for you.

So before we parted, i said to Jen,

"just trust him and love him as much as you could. he sounds to me a total nice guy."

:)

p/s: the picture was taken at circular quay when i saw this little boy toddling around with his dad. He smiled to the camera when he saw me trying to capture his picture. omg, he is so photogenic and trust me, you definitely want to bring him home with you if you see him. :)

Always happen in winter

Winter is officially hitting down under here in Sydney. It has been raining for the past few weeks and the temperature is descending everyday. It's cold, and all you need is something to keep you warm, be it living or non-living things. Sometimes loneliness overkills you, especially during winter. Even people showered with endless love will be struck by the slightest feeling of loneliness. Blame the weather, and blame ourselves for being so emotional and can't move on with life without being attached to somebody, family, friends or your lovers.


I see myself changing, changing from a pair of board shorts to a pair of jeans, from singlet to hoodies, and from a 19-years-old guy into a 20-years-old man. No visible changes have taken place externally, but a vast one internally nevertheless. They say the aging process usually works its way out from within. I do believe that. With the increasing figure of your age, your responsibilities and apprehension will directly increase, marching from the a lower level to a much higher one. It's the increasing responbilities of life that actually cause the wrinkles to surface, not the dry complexion of your face. With this, i don't think the anti-wrinkle cream will do the trick.


When you get older, you have to start comparing the price of the milk in Coles and Woollies, so that you will get the cheaper one and at the same time reducing your daily expenditure. However you are worried that on the flip side of the coin, cheaper price means lower quality and that might do more harm to your health, or provide less nutritions than the other one if anything. That's why i stop buying milk. lmao. However, i have already seen myself crossing the boundary of adulthood and stepping into it. Chicken breast is more expensive than drumstick and chicken wings, so i would talk myself into buying them despite more work have to be done when it comes to slicing or cutting it. It always happen, you start to save money because you know that sooner or later, your parents are going to leave you alone, you have to earn money and go on a budget life in order to survive. It's a balance between your capibility and the quality of life.

When you are older, you tend to differentiate between the ideal lover and the realistic lover.
"i want a guy/girl who is cute, rich, knowledgeable and bla bla bla...." you name it.
However when you get older, you know that kind of person never exist. It's always a combination of a few features, but never all of them. So you learn how to compromise, and put those things into a list starting from the feature you prefer the most to the one you think is least important. You learn how to compromise, you learn how to view life in a more realistic way. You will, however, allow yourself to wander off into the fairytale world once a while to regain your confidence towards life, and how wonderful it could be. Not that you have a bad life, it's just that a wonderful life has no boundaries, you can never get enough of it.

So what's on top of your list then? and how much does each weigh?
Personality or
Social status or
look or
Wisdom

Despite reservoir engineering, business communication, thermodynamic, Japanese, and so on and so forth, i am learning how to deal with life, and looking forward to what life has installed for me. IQ or EQ? Obviously i am an EQ person. I like the way how life is shaped up, but not how much Science has evolved. They are always related to one another, but for me, i can always see the difference between them. :)

Blog is so dead

yeh i know i am such a pain in the arse. My blog is so dead, i haven't been updating anything. life is busy people, don't blame me. Imagine i stayed back in the library till 8pm for a few consecutive days. Imagine imagine the lazy VS stayed back in the library (to check out people is it?) TO DO MY DESIGN PROJECT BUT NOT TO CHECK OUT PEOPLE!!!


Anyway, yesterday was my last day in uni for the first semester of my second year. Having my study vacation now, exam is coming in a week's time. Running out of time huh? yeah i think so but i am still not motivated to study just yet. Still slacking and planning to go out for a stroll to the malls, yeh yeh it's the winter giant sales!!!! However budget is kinda tight lately, thanks to those unknown reasons (don't ever try to guess, but i can assure you it has nothing to do with the trading of sex, lol).


What's on first? hmmm business communication. oh hell, i have just realised that i know bascially nothing about this course except for the presentations i did. arghhhhhh!! need all the notes now anyone can help me out? yeh according to Tim, i am always the end of the notes chain (yeap, usually i am the last one to receive any notes or maybe not at all, lol). but hey people, i have changed, i am more studious this year, i put in effort to print my notes out weeks before the exams.


Reservoir engineering is coming a day after that. hmm, lots of revision to go through, freaking 8 chapters (phew, 8 chapters only and you are complaning the shit out?), 8 BIG chapters people!!! And despite my will to pay attention to Rachie, there has always been something to fail me in my mission, sigh!!! Be it the people sitting next to me ( i am not talking about you Tim, don't give yourself away. lol. or Wani and Leena talking about their outfits, and touching each other (sound so wrong) or adjusting their clothes close to their boobs. hey girls, that could be very disturbing you know. hahaha. oh well not like i am going to give a damn. But obviously, Tim was trying hard to resist it. poor him.


Speaking of the reservoir engineering presentation, what's wrong with my tongue and the word " substituting", i just couldn't get it right. haha, nah just to mention my inability to pronounce that word and embarassed myself a bit.


oh what's next? oh yeh Japanese study. The final exam is such a F1 race with time. 110 questions in 2 hours. oh my god, i have to memorise all the hiragana, katakana and kanji hardcore from now on. yeh yeh, it's time to practise it!!! in other words, more shin chan!!! hahahhaa. me and my shin chan i know!! tsk tsk tsk.

My mum is coming on the 20th. Yeh, i will have one exam left during the week she is here. but meh, i will definitely have time for her. It's winter now guess she will be sneezing her heart out during the stay here. haha. and yeh she is gonna bring a KG of ikan bilis!! yeh people i miss ikan bilis ok!!!!!!!! and i miss mi hun kueh that i am going to cook it every single day! budak sial!! haha. oh yeh, speaking of malay, i think i have got some improvement on it. thanks to those bruneian friends. Xhui, Wiven, Chea hao, Yaozhong, dont worry i won't order AIR KEPALA anymore! yeh laugh!!! laugh as hard as you want, i don't care!!!!!!!

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My blog is dead, but my mind is not dead. i have lots of ideas to write, but due to my pure laziness, i have got no motivation to blog at all.

Today's topic, bitch.

Everyone is bitchy in general. Whether or not it's dominant depends on how well you present your bitchiness. It's not that you want to be a bitch, it's the people around you that unleash your bitchiness. People nowadays are overly taking things for granted and hence making each other's life difficult. the "an eye for an eye" concept is too overwhelming, and widely used in our society nowadays.

"you want to be a bitch, i will be a bitch and a half!" that's usually the case. That's why human's relationship is like a never ending war between two bitches.

"oh please for christ's sake, can we please stop fighting?" A said.

"you started it first" B said, sounded all bitchy.

"if it's not because of you, i wouldn't have started it in the first place! " A said again.

"oh yeh? So thoughtful of you to start it off for me! thanks! " B said, couldn't be any more bitchier.

"oh fine!....................." A said.

So the conversation goes on with two people being bitchy to each other. If B just said sorry, there willl be less two bitches in the world.

Case 2, in the shopping mall.

"do you think you can give me a discount on this?" A asked, seemed not going to accept any rejection at all.

"sorry i can't. i am just a staff." B said.

"hmm say if you give me a 20% discount, i will buy it right away!" A said again, not giving up.

"sorry madam, i just can't. Maybe you can choose the other stuff which is on sale?" B said. trying to be nice.

"fine then, i will buy it next time" A said.

"oh okok, i will give you 10% sale at most! " B said.

"20%" A bargained again. very firmed with her determination.

"15%" B said.

"18%?" A said. (wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if the calculator is not invented, you would have to employ an accountant in order to complete the trading)

"oh fine, 18% " A said.

such a waste of time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just dont understand. with that 10 minutes wasted on bargaining with each other, you could have talked another customer into buying it! and with that 10 minutes wasted, you could have found another shop selling it at a much cheaper price.

Just don't buy if it's too expensive! and just don't sell if you think it's too low for a price! gosh!

ok now i am a total bitch for writing all these. but every so often, you will just laugh your heart out when you bump into this kind of situation. It's interesting to see how shallow people are that they don't want to lose their dignity and hence would rather become a bitch and take over the situation.

fine! Be a bitch and you think people will think big of you? no way!

the world will be more loving if one could just suppress their bitchiness. however it wouldn't be as interesting and as exciting as it is now if there is no bitches in the world. lol.