#14 Insomnias

ok, i hate insomnias!! seriously, it's very frustrating having to toss about in bed for 4 hours thinking that you would have to wake up early for uni in just a few hours time. It's the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone. Well for me, it's even worse because i had noone to phone at such wee hours of 5.30 in the morning. hahaha.

Whenever I have insomnias, I would grab my ipod and put the earphone on and blast my ears to the extreme. I know it's stupid because that will definitely make you more awake but what to do I am such a saddist. lol.

You might be wondering "why don't you count the sheeps like what people normally do?"

"Because I freaking have no idea what a sheep is like!"
Yeh you heard me, i can't normally visualize how a sheep looks like and it takes hell lot of an effort to just visualize and wouldn't it take up more of my brain cells and make me more awake? So yeh, it's a no no for me.

Besides that I like to disturb my friends or even my siblings when I have insomnias. The idea that I couldn't fall asleep makes me such a selfish bastard that I can't afford to see others soundly asleep. So, don't whack me if I do that to you because that's just me. and just keep me accompanied by talking to me and i will be able to fall asleep in no time.

So what do you normally do when you have insomnias?

#13 Pillows

Tell me about it. I woke up at 11 already wasted half a day and thought I would be more productive after lunch. Who knows slacker like me would give myself tonnes of excuses to not study and do my assignment. Well one of the distractions came from facebook, I am not gonna blame the person who sent me the restaurant city invitation. No I am not gonna say the name!

A friend of mine came over today and threw me a question when he saw the three pillows on my bed.

"do you use all the three pillows?" He asked.
"yeh of course. why would I put them there if i am not using all three of them?" I said, looking puzzled.
"how can you use three pillows in just one single bed?" He then asked and I felt obliged to show him.

I then proceeded to my bed and showed him why I need three pillows.



"so the first one over there with the apples pillow case is to protect my head from knocking onto the bed frame or the wall. The one in the middle is for me to lay my head on. and the third one is for cuddling purpose." I gave him full demonstration with me cuddling the pillow on the bed. Ok, maybe it looked somehow disturbing but hey that's my sleeping habit.

"Would you cuddle the pillow throughout the whole night? or you will lose it in the middle of the night?"

"hmm pretty much the whole night! It feels like I am cuddling someone to sleep. sounds sad but a pillow is what I use for a substitute!" I then said, giggled at my very own thought.

"oh by the way I used to have one more for my legs at the end of the bed." i then added.

So people, how many pillows do you need?

#12 Night at the museum 2

Wasn't as funny as I thought it would be and to be honest, i fell asleep half way through the movie. The animations were good, the crews were good, but the jokes were lame and the idea was so such a cliche. I was thinking of having a laugh to make the day easier, but it didn't quite do the job.

So people if you have nothing better to spend 11 dollars on, go for this movie. I would otherwise suggest to you a better lunch. :)


Dinner was nice with Nick and my cousin at this Hunan restaurant serving one of the best Hunan cuisine in town. Nick and I downed a bottle of red wine after that. After all it's Saturday night it's totally fine to have a few sips (ok I know a few sips is an understatement). Oh by the way, sex amd the city is still on the top of my list of the best american series. It kinda compensated for the disappointing night at the museum.

#11 Jogging at Centennial Park

Woken up by the recurring dream this morning at around 7am and couldn't fall back to sleep. What on earth is wrong with me? maybe I need more pillows, three of them aren't really enough for me I reckon.

Nick called at 10sth asking me to join him for a jog in the park. Well, given the fact that I am such an outdoor guy (no?), I straight away said yes. He picked me up at around 11. The funny part is I couldn't find my track pants and jogging shoes hence I put on short pants and my Diesel as a change. What an inappropriate outfit to be seen in the park. lol.


The jogging track is surrounded by balding trees with all the yellowish leaves hanging onto them waiting to be shed.




The lake is extremely peaceful today. I couldn't help but to stand by it and stare out straight in hope that it will pass on the peace to me. I could feel that every single thing in the park isn't liking the winter scene. It makes the once lively park less lively.

Stayed in uni till night time trying to finish my assignments. I couldn't agree more with the abbreviation of my uni UNSW -- u never sleep well.

#10 one of the six identicals?

So Jason sent me this picture and told me that he was shocked that the girl in the middle looks so much like me at first sight. Well, I personally don't think so but every of my friends around are siding Jason so I really don't have a say.

"omg, I thought it's Shane dressing up with...." Stef said.

"Are you sure it's not Shane himself?" xxx said.

and many more similar comments. Seriously, that alike???

The irony is I actually saw the girl when I was in Melbourne at my friend's party. lol.

My friend Leena told me there are 6 people in this world that look like us. So where are the other 5? hehe.

and seriously? a girl that looks like me?

#due to some copyright issues, I took the picture down :P. Jason, not that I don't wanna post it up, wahahaha.

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anyway, Nick allowed me to drive his manual operated car on Monday and I indeed scared the shit outta him. Well, what do you expect? after almost four years of not driving a stick, I kinda totally forgot how to drive a manual car!!!! but anyway we are still in one piece aren't we??? Well, it won't be long till the second experience. let's see how I will go with it. :) Hopefully it will be smooth:)



Thanks nick :)

#9 Zee Avi

Came across this clip in someone's blog. Zee Avi (a Malaysian singer) has definitely got a fantastic voice, it's soothing and is always able to sip into your veins all the way to your heart,especially on a rainy day when it's wet and cold. She reminds me of JoannaWong (王若琳）and subsequently brings back all the memories that I am trying to set aside.



It's raining again and I came home caught in the rain with my hood on. The weather is just too nice to sleep in that I am not doing any work now. Final is looming and I am still procrastinating. Someone please slap me in the face and wake me up, if you hate me enough, i don't mind if you slap me on both sides of my face. :). Put down your name and I will contact you if you are being selected. :)



Oh btw, one more thing to add. I got my test paper back and as expected, the laziness did pay off. :( I got a mark below average. *sob sob*. Seriously need some spankings to remind me to work harder. :P

#8 华文记

好一段时间没用中文写文章了。很想念写作，想念那种情绪和感觉在文字中游走的满足感，也怀念以前善于用文字和言语表达自己的能力。呆坐在荧幕前，没办法把文字串连起来，觉得非常地力不从心。也发现了自己是多么地词不达意。心中纵使有千言万语也不能一字一句地表达出来。德发，想讥讽我的话，就请便吧。

想家了。最近电话老妈的次数越来越频密，老妈也很明事理地问我 “今天又发生什么事了？”。看来我之前还真的不常给她打电话。老妈说我一定是又碰钉子了。 不然哪来的闲情给她打电话。我无奈地默认了。其实也不是什么碰不碰钉子的，就是想听她的声音，很有镇静的作用。

妈说我好命惯了，吃不了苦，从出世到现在什么都是一帆风顺，所以稍有挫折就可以很轻易地把我击垮。我想也是。说我好强不如说我输不起。



最近朋友和我说，人生如戏。老套陈词但是当你亲身体验之后你就会觉得自己就是最佳男演员。生活中很多戏子，我们也在不经意中当了主角，陪戏子把这岀戏演得淋漓尽致。怕只怕在故事的终点，主角太如戏没办法走出来，又一部热泪的悲剧。朋友就说，当心点儿，记得在闭幕的时候来个华丽的转身，鞠躬谢幕，然后潇洒地离开舞台。很多时候，我们都只在意过程，并没有为故事的结局画上漂亮的句点，所以生活中才有那么多的遗憾和不完美。

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晚上去跳舞。真希望一天２４小时都在跳舞。有谁要当我的舞伴？

#7 It's Monday again

It's Monday again and as usual I skipped the Geology class and the econs class right after that. Well reason being that I wouldn't pay attention even if I go so why bother? Anyway I promised myself I will go next week for it's the last lecture for this semester. :). It's not very helpful I know but I am just trying to make myself feel better here. lol.



A friend of mine sent me this and it really cracked me up. Sorry for those who can't read Chinese. Could I be a Korean as well?

Something has really gotten under my skin this morning and it made me swear so much. I am sorry for the vulgarity but trust me I haven't sworn for the past few years and this thing really unnerved and angered me.

不在乎你的不在乎。

#6 I don't like Sunday

I don't like Sunday. It tells you you have to go back to uni again tomorrow. It also tells you that you shouldn't go out because you have to get ready for uni tomorrow. Well for me, it's more. It means I have incomplete assignments, lots of materials to go through-- the aftermaths of skipping lectures.



So the best thing to do on Sunday is to actually watch Crayon Shin Chan.He makes you laugh, makes you temporarily forget what is on your mind, and also gives you hope that life can actually be so simple.

A friend of mine just got out of relationship for the same old reason. Are we too gullible or people out there are just too good in disguising themselves? Anyway, do not afraid to love because without love our life will be so dull. Don't forget I am just a phone call away, you know who you are :)

#5 Live life like a blind

Opsss it's almost 12 and I am doing the last minute posting here. :). Just to be called a consistent blogger. I always am ain't I?

Ok this picture is so cool. The only caption I can come up with is to live life like a blind. Come to think of it, it's sometimes nice to not see how the world or the person you are close to are changing. Changes aren't always good, especially when it doesn't turn out your way. How I wish a lot of things could remain but it just seems like they never would.

Heard a line from Wani today which according to her is actually her mum's.

"life is full of shits and you gotta use those shits to live your life."

#4 Shopping Spree

So it's Friday and i have got no classes on Friday!!! Well having no classes doesn't really grant me with more sleep. I had to get up at 9.30 for a group meeting scheduled at 11am. :(. Well at least I got full 8 hours of sleep before that. Can't complain.

Went to the city after that to collect my translated script for my driving license. 65 dollars for a few words translated from Malay to English makes me think the idea of becoming a qualified translator isn't that bad afterall. Money wise of course. :)

Went to Ben Sherman outlet after that for this VIP Shopping Spree where you get 40% off everything in the store. I couldn't stop scooping up all the clothes and try them on and wanna bag them all home. Well, 40% is alot, but my wallet couldn't afford more than 1 jacket, 2 t-shirts and also 1 pajamas. Of all the things I got, I am particularly excited about the pajamas that i brought home. Wonder what is wrong with me, pajamas??? are you serious????? and how exciting it is to get a pajamas within 5 second -- I paid for all my clothes and was ready to go out when I came across this pajamas hanging there waiting for me to check it out. Of course I couldn't resist the temptation and went near it. That's when I found myself took it off the hangers and ran towards Jason who was paying at that time and asked him to pay for me. The whole process took up only 10 seconds. lol. Talking about experiences. lol.

Ok today I am wearing this green shirt with Nobita on it. Everyone was visually raping me and it kinda gave me this mixed uncomfortable yet hey-what's-wrong-with-getting-all-the-attention feelings. Yeh wait till I put on my shin chan shirt. lol.

Project 365 #3

I was writing the previous in the petroleum economics lecture yesterday and now i am writing this in my microeconomics tutorial. You must be wondering "aren't you doing petroleum engineering? but how come you are doing two econs subjects?"

*and the guy sitting next to me is, for the first time, listening to the submission question presentation because the girl presenting is pretty (seriously i don't think she is pretty at all). Tim, you are so superficial!!!!*

So speaking of economics, I just got my midterm exam paper back. The tutor is so bias that he gave me 1.25marks for that particular question but my friend got 1.5 marks for the exact same answer. That's not fair, and honestly, if the 2.5 marks are for the handwriting, I deserved it!!!!! But anyway, I don't really care but it just pissed me off. Don't get me wrong, I still like my tutor, he always comes in unprepared. So cool isn't he? lol.


On the other notes, winter is coming. I am already feeling the chill and not liking it. Maybe it's time to put some new addition to my wardrobe to keep myself warm during the cold and lonely winter days. However, it's still nice to see the colourful withering leaves in the morning. It really does cheer people up.

人的生活中不单只是黑和白那么简单，我们有时候会被困在灰色地带。凡是都没有绝对。

Project 365 #2

I should probably give credit to the guest lecturer from PWC for making me updating my blog here. The lecture is just too boring!! Risk management just ain't my cup of tea really. and who the hell attend lectures at 8am in uni?



A picture taken at Darling Harbour. Love going there and love the hot chocolate from Lindt Cafe. Strolling along the harbour with a cuppa hot chocolate in hand makes life so easy and uplifting. Haven't been there in a while. The memories are just too overwhelming.

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shane's quote：　
休息是为了走更长远的路。所以先别理ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ，休息睡觉比较重要。：）

Project 365 #1

Got this idea from Mao, project 365 means 365 portraits in a year which in other words daily update on the blog. :) Hope I am gonna be consistent this time.

When i am writing this, I only had a fish burger for dinner. Got a medium set from mcdonald with tea instead of coke. But guess what, the guy gave me a cup of hot water, two packs of sugar and milk but no tea bag!!! Did i not order tea? For a change, I had green tea with burger, what a weird combination I know but I seriously couldn't care less.

I am still hungry. Could anyone send me some rice? If you are kind enough do you mind bringing me some sticky rice? Because that will really help with my hunger atm. It's cold and I am hungry how much sadder can my life be? okok maybe not that bad becaue i still have apple and strawberries :)



Called my mum last night and she asked "why are you calling? missing me already?" I wanted to deny but what's the problem of missing your mum anyway? and I told her i miss her cookings more. How mean!!!

"you sound upset" Mum said.
"yeh a little, been quite troubled lately" I said.
"what's wrong?" Mum asked again.
"lots of problem." I said.
"try to talk to someone and dont keep everything to yourself, i know you so well" she said.

Of all the conversations we had last night, this one in particular made me teary and I just wanna hug her tightly as a son, a son that misses his mum.

"我觉得很没有归属感，从小到大都找不到，觉得没有属于我的地方“
”你属于我的，属于秀然的“ 妈说。

To the South of Sydney

ok peeps, I have been asked to shut down my blog if i am not gonna update.

"don't put the link on your personal msg if you don't wanna update it" wai hou said.

"fucker, go update your blog" xxx said.

"is your blog still alive?" yyy said.

*******blushed***********

So being the busiest man in the world, I didn't make an exception to stay at home during my Easter which ended yesterday. :(. I went down south to Melbourne for 5D4N and it was of course a blast.

Booked the ticket one month before departure when it's on sale so 150 dollars was definitely a good deal. I was due to depart on Saturday with Chea hao but again I went out till late on friday night and got sick on that day itself. Shame on me. So yeh speaking of Chea hao, for those of you who haven't happened to know yet, he is in Australia on an exchange program.

Arrived at Melbourne at around 7, we were just in time for dinner. Zhang li was my host for the entire trip and sea win was chea hao's. Met up at the city to go to Lygon street for Italian food.

Risotto anyone? The portion was just too big sea win and I couldn't have finished it anyhow.
Nice ambiance. Bring your lover there next time on special occasion. highly recommended.
This is rump steak if i am not mistaken. It's too cooked I would personally recommend medium rare.
Sea win and I. :). Sorry I didn't turn on the flash. She hasn't changed a bit, still took forever to decide on something.
Derek and zhang li and zhangli's friends, well I think I could call them my friends as well but you know, I am not always perasan. :$


The famous Yarra River. That's me promoting world aids day in Melbourne.
One of the many cathedral. but this one looks just magnificent.

This is the central station. There is an interesting history behind this but I couldn't quite remember so i am not gonna detail it here. :) next time maybe :P

I love being on trips. It's relaxing and I can just do whatever I wanna without having to worry about the annoying routines. but of course I have to go easy on the money, but come on can we for once not talk about money?????????????? lol. Life has been quite hard lately and a trip is exactly what i needed the most.

Toddler

Ok I know the blog deserves a little more attention from me.

Holiday is coming to an end after almost 4 months off uni and anything associated with it. Well not just yet but real soon. Two more weeks and I will be back to Sydney in a long dreadful flight via Darwin. Blame MAS for not starting the promotion 3 days earlier!!!! yes 3 days, and it's gonna grant me a 4 hours ordeal in the pathetically small Darwin Airport.

So what's been the highlight of this long break? Let's recount.

I went on so many trips with my friends and family, ok maybe not quite so with my family but wth, I still had lotsa fun. First to singapore, and then straight to Fraser's Hill and KKB, then Cameron Highlands and last but not least Laos which i will detail in the next few posts, perhaps. lol.

Let's not forget about my nephew. He has, to be honest, taken up most of the time i spent at home (ok, I am no longer the nomad this time, I have actually been quite home-bound). He has grown up fast, from a baby before I left for SYdney last year to a toddler who speaks after whatever words we say. Despite him being annoying sometimes (with all the cryings and screamings and playing-with-my-laptop), I actually enjoy his company.


I am starting to feel old having watched him growing into a toddler. His innocent laughters reminds me of my long-gone childhood and his mischievous behaviors tells me how different kids nowadays are. They are no longer the gullible bunch but rather the you-better-not-mess-with-me bunch. The world has already taken a big leap but I still remain. Maybe it's time to catch up.



I owned a pair of levi's jeans at the age of 17 but this kid here is wearing it with so much pride and dignity as if to show it off to me. :(. Well what to do I can't possibly take it off and put it on myself.

We shouldn't compare the current to the past. Just like how I always tell my mum not to compare my current comfy life with her used-to-be inadequate one. Move forward, there is no use looking back it won't do any good. For the old the old theory is no longer applicable in today's society.

Tagged by hadee.
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture
3. Post that picture with no editing
4.Post these instruction with your picture
5. Tag 5 people to do this


Here it is, the wakeup look. well except for the messy hair, everything still looks fine. lol.
I think this kinda tagging is meant more for girls especially those who wear makeup.

I tagged qin ai de, kai, xinyee, yaozhong and christopher.

high school~

Time for a little flashbacks here! Blogging has always been my best excuse to not study during exam periods. lol.

I wanna go on a trip!!!!!!!!! and i wanna become a dolphin trainer!!!! ok that's random I know. My mum will possibly kill me if I were to utter those words to her.

Awwww, how happy everyone was. If I am not mistaken, defa took this picture didn't he? well despite being the shortest among the BOYS(or was I not?), I wasn't anymore after a high jump. proud*** Spot me!!!

ahahah, yering your weight sank my feet into the sand for a bit. And the hair!!! omg, would you wanna put on that hairstyle again? lol. Mun ee looked so small on waihou's.

Wonder what those girls had done to me. lol. It was form 4 form 5? My shitty memory couldn't locate me somebody please tell me. I think it's form 5 with that longer-than-bald hair.hahaha. By the way, qin ai de you are getting prettier and prettier. haha. and kai you are getting more feminine:) Mei ping I haven't seen you for ages!!! Can't wait to see you in December! So I will save the compliments till I see you. :)

arghhhh, can i turn back time?

Chilly

The weather is back in the chilly state. It reminds me of Ice Cream. Eating something cold in the cold weather makes the chilly feelings more significant.



The combination ice cream platter from Passion Flower, a dessert paradise which we are led to believe serve the best ice cream in Sydney. Everyone has a sweet tooth, at least among the people around me, but I don't seem to have one. I don't crave for ice cream, neither do I crave for chocolate. People said sweet stuff stimulate the secretion of endorphine, but it just doesn't seem to work on my body. Maybe, I need something different, something pseudo that I have never been able to figure out.


Miss the laughters. The happy moments are captured, in a way that we believe laughters mean happiness. Yes, as simple as it sounds, laughter really reflects one's actual state of happiness. But I wonder how often do we just smile for the sake of smiling when laughter no longer carries any meaning in this case.


How true is that when people seek satisfaction from spending money?

"I am sad, I need to go shopping and spend as much as possible only to heal my sunken heart." Many of my friends once told me but I never really saw it materialised.

I want to feel desired. Desired to an extent that I can no longer feel my own desires.

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current mood: fighting for drilling. Penetration rate has really gotten under my skin. lol.
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关心*心关

之所以关心
换来了一句无心可关
哪能关心

改变
已不是我可操控的
我不甘 也不愿
但是不甘不愿之际
我失去了选择的权利

我没变
由始至终都没变